my first sad farewell

i hate early flights. why? it means i would have to start the day without him. i like evening flights better. why? because i can spend the day first before he goes.

i was bidding goodbye. he looked at me with so much love not even showing disappointment.

i looked backed at him with so much guilt and shame for myself and couldn't show any love at all.

i couldn't say i love him straight to the face. i wish i had. i really wish.

after he left, i called him on his phone. told him to take care, and told him i love him.

then started crying myself to sleep.

this was my first sad farewell to my dad who just left this morning.

i miss my dad. i love my dad.

i wished he stayed longer so we can be able to celebrate father's day.

i miss my dad. i love my dad.

Freewriting

this is my first blog entry. i will try freewriting again for my first post. Food. I chose food for my topic for our freewriting exercise earlier. food is a positive topic for freewriting. that's what i thought. maybe ill chose another topic now. exercise. i don't really exercise. people can tell. i'm short and stout. haha. im trying to change my lifestyle. trying to change it into healthier lifestyle. start exercising. eat less fatty food. eat more vegetables and fruits. eat raw food. eat animals alive. kidding! haha. no stopping even if you don't have anything to say. keep typing even if it doesn't make sense. 3 minutes is almost over. a few seconds. 6..5..4..3..2..1..

free writing is done.

i'll try to write a better blog next time.

Goodnight everyone.