trying to find stars.

I'm just here outside. trying to find stars.

but I think the mosquitoes have better sight than me.

they easily find me and then bite me to their satisfaction.

well, I'm back to trying to find stars tonight. they seem to be busy travelling.

because i can't seem to find one right now. I'm trying to find some light. even though there are lights everywhere.

the light from our house, the light coming from the windows of every house nearby. Lights from the passing vehicles. cars, jeeps, tricycless, motorcycles, trucks. lights from the lamp posts. there are lights every where. but I seem to be looking for some other kind of light.

*sigh*

I want to see some light from above. (after I typed this line, there was lightning. i am shocked. and in awe.)

maybe I won't ask for other lights. haha!

enough blog for tonight.

ciao!

my right side of the bed :)

4:00am...

5:00am..

Awakened by the sound of my cellphone. Hearing it's loud sound, a razor running through the head of my brother, chopping of his hair until it is no longer visible. I opened my eyes, seeing it's still dark, I lazily, grabbed and pressed snooze and slept again for a few minutes. Or maybe several minutes, until I can see the rays of the sun coming through my window. I always wake up on my right side of the bed.

What is my right side of the bed?

Literally, the right side of my bed is a blank leche flan-ish-yellow wall. Seeing the blank yellow walls, feeling my pillows, under my head, another one between my thighs and another one that I hug really tight, I knew I was awake and saw the sunlight that tells me it's already 530am. I stretch a little bit, bury my face under the blanket and feel my bed for the last time until I jump out of bed and sit at the foot of it. I like sitting at the food of my bed. Right at the foot of my bed is my window. I can hear my aunt and our neighbor talking and laughing, at the bakod where we call it bakod-online. I shouted, "online nanaman kayo. ang aga mag-online eh." then laughed out loud. :)

my other right side of the bed is, when I sit near my window, and feel the heat of the sun touching my face. And when I peak and lean outside my window, you will see the mountain and Laguna Bay sparkling at its foot and feel the rays of the sun, hearing the early honking sounds of the jeepneys and cars passing by, birds chirping cheerfully and smell freshly baked pandesal from our neighboorhood panaderia. Then, I start to say my thankful morning prayer.

That's me, waking up at the right side of my bed. :)

How about you?

gloooooommyyy

rain rain go away.. come again later tonight.. :D haha!

its been raining a lot these days.. its getting a little colder now..

every morning it rains and it makes me want to stay in bed..

haay..

sometimes rain makes me happy..

but most of the time, rain makes me sad..

it makes me muni-muni about so many things..

most of them sad memories..

i have a lot in mind.. and i hate the rain for making me think of those unhappy thoughts i have..

but i love the rain for making me feel the colder breeze..

i don't what to say.. and i don't know what to do right now..

maybe things are better left unsaid.. so there won't be any regrets..

my blog entry's a mess.. a lot of thoughts.. and a lot of unfinished thougts..

i'm just letting things out.. maybe share a little more on my next blog..

see you later blogger :D

Freewriting

this is my first blog entry. i will try freewriting again for my first post. Food. I chose food for my topic for our freewriting exercise earlier. food is a positive topic for freewriting. that's what i thought. maybe ill chose another topic now. exercise. i don't really exercise. people can tell. i'm short and stout. haha. im trying to change my lifestyle. trying to change it into healthier lifestyle. start exercising. eat less fatty food. eat more vegetables and fruits. eat raw food. eat animals alive. kidding! haha. no stopping even if you don't have anything to say. keep typing even if it doesn't make sense. 3 minutes is almost over. a few seconds. 6..5..4..3..2..1..

free writing is done.

i'll try to write a better blog next time.

Goodnight everyone.