this time, this is about you.

I've never held feelings for this long.

it's been months since I've cried hard because of feeling alone.

it's been months since I felt really alone.

it's been months since I've told someone about you.

never talked about you since then.

never tried to talked about you again since then.

no one knows how heavy it feels.

i wanted no one to know because i never thought it would come to this.

a heavy feeling. the feeling of distance. the feeling that I am out of place.

the feeling of being left behind.

since then, I've felt I've been chasing people.

chasing everyone. trying to tie everyone beside me so they would never leave like you did and I would never feel alone. the chasing feeling never stopped. or so i thought.

I stopped chasing. I stopped. I just stopped and let things be.

I stopped so I could what you wanted me to do. to let things be. to let you be.

and I did. I wandered away without knowing. now I'm thinking, maybe I wandered too far, or maybe it took you so long.

I don't know what to say.. I don't know what to do.. I don't know how to act in front of you..

now, the heavy feeling has come back again.. but It's not because of the same feelings.. but because of the feeling that I already lost you..

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i am writing randomly. literally. :D haha!

by AKO

i never felt this gladness

when i finally met my happiness..

i remembered when we used to be seatmates in ELCIRAN,

when you're on my side, i always feel the fun..

you always make me smile

just don't go too far like a mile..

day by day, you make my day,

that's right, you are my dei.. :D

i'll always be at your side

just like in the alphabet, G will always be in H's side.. :D

there comes a time when i don't know what to say

but keep this promise, i'm always here to stay..

the strange feeling

this started two weeks ago..

i keep feeling this.. every time i remember what you said..

i don't know if i am angry or hungry.. haha! kidding!

i don't understand why or what.. but i feel it..

i feel very sad.. yes, i am very sad because of what you said..

i feel outraged.. yes, i am outraged because of what you said..

i feel angry.. yes, i am angry because of what you said..

i feel degraded.. yes i am degraded because of what you said..

i feel bad.. yes i feel so bad.. so bad, i cried..

you'd never understand.. maybe no one would..

haaiii..

the outline

Title:

Bringing the Green Back in Laguna de Bay

Thesis Statement:

Laguna de Bay as a natural resource and environmental landscape has deteriorated through time but there are many ways to preserve it.

Although Laguna de Bay has deteriorated due to pollution, there are many ways in which Lagueños can improve the state of this natural resource and preserve this important element of Laguna’s environmental landscape.

Outline:

I. Introduction

a. Living Beside Laguna de Bay

b. The Beauty of Laguna de Bay

II. History of Laguna de Bay

a. Where is Laguna de Bay

b. Why is it Called Laguna de Bay

c. What happened to Laguna de Bay

III. Natural Resources

a. Marine Life in Laguna de Bay

b. Livelihood in Laguna de Bay

IV. Environmental Landscape

a. Physical State of Laguna de Bay

i. Before

ii. After

b. Pollution in Laguna de Bay

i. Cause

ii. Effect

V. Conclusion

a. Why revive Laguna de Bay

argh.

i don't know why but i feel strange. hmmm.

no, i know why i feel strange.

i really do. its because of you. i don't know why i'm blogging about you.

maybe, because i don't have the courage to tell anyone. maybe, because i'm

used to not telling anyone about you. grrrr. is this bitterness?

we used to write each other..

we used to see each other a lot..

we used to go to the movies..

we used to window shop..

we used to talk for hours about anything under the sun..

we used to sleep over each other's houses..

we used to have silly childish and grown up girl bonding times..

we used to be inseparable..

we used to look out for each other..

and now, we just used to be..

i hate it when i said that nothing should change, then everything just changed. :(

just let go.

just let go of the past.

so today won't suffer.

and the future will be better.

just let go.