this time, this is about you.

I've never held feelings for this long.

it's been months since I've cried hard because of feeling alone.

it's been months since I felt really alone.

it's been months since I've told someone about you.

never talked about you since then.

never tried to talked about you again since then.

no one knows how heavy it feels.

i wanted no one to know because i never thought it would come to this.

a heavy feeling. the feeling of distance. the feeling that I am out of place.

the feeling of being left behind.

since then, I've felt I've been chasing people.

chasing everyone. trying to tie everyone beside me so they would never leave like you did and I would never feel alone. the chasing feeling never stopped. or so i thought.

I stopped chasing. I stopped. I just stopped and let things be.

I stopped so I could what you wanted me to do. to let things be. to let you be.

and I did. I wandered away without knowing. now I'm thinking, maybe I wandered too far, or maybe it took you so long.

I don't know what to say.. I don't know what to do.. I don't know how to act in front of you..

now, the heavy feeling has come back again.. but It's not because of the same feelings.. but because of the feeling that I already lost you..

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i am writing randomly. literally. :D haha!

by AKO

i never felt this gladness

when i finally met my happiness..

i remembered when we used to be seatmates in ELCIRAN,

when you're on my side, i always feel the fun..

you always make me smile

just don't go too far like a mile..

day by day, you make my day,

that's right, you are my dei.. :D

i'll always be at your side

just like in the alphabet, G will always be in H's side.. :D

there comes a time when i don't know what to say

but keep this promise, i'm always here to stay..

the strange feeling

this started two weeks ago..

i keep feeling this.. every time i remember what you said..

i don't know if i am angry or hungry.. haha! kidding!

i don't understand why or what.. but i feel it..

i feel very sad.. yes, i am very sad because of what you said..

i feel outraged.. yes, i am outraged because of what you said..

i feel angry.. yes, i am angry because of what you said..

i feel degraded.. yes i am degraded because of what you said..

i feel bad.. yes i feel so bad.. so bad, i cried..

you'd never understand.. maybe no one would..

haaiii..

the outline

Title:

Bringing the Green Back in Laguna de Bay

Thesis Statement:

Laguna de Bay as a natural resource and environmental landscape has deteriorated through time but there are many ways to preserve it.

Although Laguna de Bay has deteriorated due to pollution, there are many ways in which Lagueños can improve the state of this natural resource and preserve this important element of Laguna’s environmental landscape.

Outline:

I. Introduction

a. Living Beside Laguna de Bay

b. The Beauty of Laguna de Bay

II. History of Laguna de Bay

a. Where is Laguna de Bay

b. Why is it Called Laguna de Bay

c. What happened to Laguna de Bay

III. Natural Resources

a. Marine Life in Laguna de Bay

b. Livelihood in Laguna de Bay

IV. Environmental Landscape

a. Physical State of Laguna de Bay

i. Before

ii. After

b. Pollution in Laguna de Bay

i. Cause

ii. Effect

V. Conclusion

a. Why revive Laguna de Bay

argh.

i don't know why but i feel strange. hmmm.

no, i know why i feel strange.

i really do. its because of you. i don't know why i'm blogging about you.

maybe, because i don't have the courage to tell anyone. maybe, because i'm

used to not telling anyone about you. grrrr. is this bitterness?

we used to write each other..

we used to see each other a lot..

we used to go to the movies..

we used to window shop..

we used to talk for hours about anything under the sun..

we used to sleep over each other's houses..

we used to have silly childish and grown up girl bonding times..

we used to be inseparable..

we used to look out for each other..

and now, we just used to be..

i hate it when i said that nothing should change, then everything just changed. :(

just let go.

just let go of the past.

so today won't suffer.

and the future will be better.

just let go.

a certain you.

I asked a certain YOU for a topic to write a blog about.

then that certain YOU said, "AKO."

okay. I'll try to write about YOU.

AKO is a very funny person.

AKO is a tall, and dark, and hmmm.. let me think about the other adjective.. handsome? maybe yes, maybe no. hahaha!

AKO is someone I've known since my first year in college.

AKO has been my classmate since my first year in college.

AKO is someone who loves playing basketball.

AKO is a very good singer. Sing for me. please?

AKO is a very makulit and maligalig and masayahin na tao.

AKO is someone you can count on.

AKO is someone who looks like a turtle. haha!

AKO is someone who makes me smile.

AKO is someone who makes my heart skip a beat.

AKO is someone who makes me feel special.

AKO is someone who makes me happy.

when I am with AKO, I don't feel so alone.

AKO is someone I want to keep.

AKO is a boy.

and AKO is my friend. :)

trying to find stars.

I'm just here outside. trying to find stars.

but I think the mosquitoes have better sight than me.

they easily find me and then bite me to their satisfaction.

well, I'm back to trying to find stars tonight. they seem to be busy travelling.

because i can't seem to find one right now. I'm trying to find some light. even though there are lights everywhere.

the light from our house, the light coming from the windows of every house nearby. Lights from the passing vehicles. cars, jeeps, tricycless, motorcycles, trucks. lights from the lamp posts. there are lights every where. but I seem to be looking for some other kind of light.

*sigh*

I want to see some light from above. (after I typed this line, there was lightning. i am shocked. and in awe.)

maybe I won't ask for other lights. haha!

enough blog for tonight.

ciao!

Classify.

BOOKS. I used to read a lot when i was younger. and I'm trying to revive my passion in reading. I've been reading and buying a lot of books lately. From BOOKSALE.

I classify the books i read.

Before, I have a smaller room. And it amazing how so many people could fit in that little amount of space it has. It has a hanging bookshelf at the foot of my bed. Everyday I wake up, and literally see books. They are the first thing I see every morning. haha! I have lots of books. but not all types of books. Let me try to enumerate the books.

1. Encyclopedias - These where the first ones I used to read.

a. Medical Encyclopedias - These are my favorites. I badly want to be a doctor. But here I am an engineering student. haha!

b. A-Z Encyclopedias - The usual encyclopedias filled with lots of information. My favorite is the H encycclopedia. why? it has Hologram. haha!

2. School books - from elementary to High school. But a lot are disposed now. I should have kept them and donated them to schools.

3. Magazines - the only magazine I have is National Geographic. I never bought fashion magazines or the likes.

4. Digests - Yes. I am a Reader's Digest Subscriber. My favorite. hehe :D

5. Pocket Books/ Novels - not the Pinoy version of pocket books. haha! I am starting to collect books now. They're good investments. For me. :D

6. Visual Books - Children's books with lots of pictures and explanations of the things around us.

7. Dictionaries - I have the big dictionaries. The heavy dictionaries. Small ones. and English - Tagalog Dictionary. haha!

there. I don't have a lot. but i think they are many. hehe. :D

I have to design a new bookshelf to fit all the books :D

Commute or Drive

There are two ways of going to De La Salle Canlubang, commuting and driving your own car, but which is better? There are a lot of pros and cons in both ways. I used to commute during my first years in college. Today, commuting means you are a hundred pesos richer for a day compared to driving. From my house, I would only need at least P40 – P58 one-way, and P80 – 98 two-way. It is easier to compute the cost of computing than driving. I approximated the distance of my home and school and computed the cost of gas I have to burn, I would need at least P100 for a one-way trip. Gassing up your tank cut really cut down your allowance for a week. That is one point for commuting.

Travel time is another factor you have to consider in transportation. Travel time is dependent on daily traffic situations. Commuting means you have to take several rides in order to get to your destination. Commuting means it would take 45 minutes to 1 hour and a half before I get to school. While in driving, I would only take 30 to 45 minutes to get to school. That is one point for driving.

Driving and commuting are tied, each with one good point. There is another factor you have to consider to tell which is really better. It is the preparation before going to school. This is one big factor, especially for students. Commuting means I have to wake up extra early so I can avoid traffic during rush hour and not get late in my first subject. Commuting also means I have to expect the unexpected because so many unexpected events can happen in the range of 45 minutes to 1 and a half hour travel. Even if you have been a long time commuter, you really cannot approximate time and control traffic. In addition to that, you can take the free black powder from smoke belchers in front of the tricycle you are rding and come to school as if you didn’t take a shower for 3 days. Driving, on the other hand means, I get to wake up early enough, just to prepare myself and drive my car and take my best route to school without rushing and running in the corridor and still I won’t get late and come as fresh as I can be. That is another point for driving. So if you ask me, driving is better than commuting, because i would spend that extra money than to waste my time and effort in preparing myself.

internet

wah! its been a while since ive been online..

sa wakas! may net na ulit..

4 days using my computer without internet..

it was a little hard for me.. huhuhu..

especially for my assignments and other stuffs that i need the internet for..

well, its back and i hope it doesnt go away this time.

I still have blog to post.

ciao!